Glory Days

 just another at risk
just another social politic
with a painted on face
to hide my pain away

ive kept you waiting long enough
but im afraid i may show too much
im afraid you wont like what you see
just another sesitive soul
swimming inside a bottle

as if that were really how i am
im no life in the party im only a sham
another fool that was just too cool for school
that let go at the drop of the hat
from everything that i held on to for so long
at the first sign of disappointment it was gone
i never finished anything

make it up as you go along
and change the rules when you go wrong
never turn back
and forget the past
remembering that tomorrow wont last
drift away with the wind
all were ever good for
is a few moments

" oh glory days
when we were something
why have you disappeared
why have you left me here
it should have been my time
and i was in my time
i was so eager to be someone
would you believe in me if you were still here
or would you walk out on me and watch me disappear
and watch me fade away
oh where have you gone oh glory days"

highschool was a hell i lived in day to day
there were moments of sheer bliss
but the people never changed
i was strange
another unapproachable
with a lot of time to himself

i was never capable
of what i said
it never came my way
so i had to seize it
when i could
i wasnt bad or tainted
i was only misunderstood

" oh glory days
when we were something
why have you disappeared
why have you left me here
it should have been my time
and i was in my time
i was so eager to be someone
would you believe in me if you were still here
or would you walk out on me and watch me disappear
and watch me fade away
oh where have you gone oh glory days"

its all about persiverance
but all i cared for was a chance to show my difference
and it be okay
the recognition
was not my mission
it was just a silent admission
that i was important
even only for a moment

" oh glory days
when we were something
why have you disappeared
why have you left me here
it should have been my time
and i was in my time
i was so eager to be someone
would you believe in me if you were still here
or would you walk out on me and watch me disappear
and watch me fade away
oh where have you gone oh glory days"

i was to afraid
to run away
so i simmered in my anger
and poisoned my enviroment
with slurred words and violent outbursts
i wasted time feeling trapped within my own skin

so i recall
bouts of depression
and copious amounts of alcohol
feeling worthless
wishing things would return
to the former glory of how they were
when it was sublime
when i had time
when i wasnt running out the clock
it was a simpler way
in those glory days

" oh glory days
when we were something
why have you disappeared
why have you left me here
it should have been my time
and i was in my time
i was so eager to be someone
would you believe in me if you were still here
or would you walk out on me and watch me disappear
and watch me fade away
oh where have you gone oh glory days"

the hours passed like marmalade
slithering down the surface
of the glass upon the frame
the clock on the wall
was stuck in reverse
and i clenched tight to my sides
as i wretched from the pain

they cut me open
disected my brain
found the words to use
to put me down in shame
it was all a game
they werent to blame
becasue what they said was true
and the defense was all in vain

 i cured the pain
with poetry and nicotene
recalling all the time
how i longed for understanding, not just empty fame
and the hurt and weight of being a pariah and hearing all the names
how i miss the glory days

" oh glory days
when we were something
why have you disappeared
why have you left me here
it should have been my time
and i was in my time
i was so eager to be someone
would you believe in me if you were still here
or would you walk out on me and watch me disappear
and watch me fade away
oh where have you gone oh glory days"

could we fix me
is there hope
and how is it that we cope
in this sea of trouble
were tossed and broke

but can i escape
can i be saved
stay tuned to find out , just turn the next page
spoiler alert, im still the smae old jerk
who falls for the smae tricks
caught up in this
foreign obstacles in a foreign place
how can i recapture the glory days

" oh glory days
when we were something
why have you disappeared
why have you left me here
it should have been my time
and i was in my time
i was so eager to be someone
would you believe in me if you were still here
or would you walk out on me and watch me disappear
and watch me fade away
oh where have you gone oh glory days"