hell hath no fury

in the bitter cold
world that we call home
there is nothing left
to scavenge nothing left but emptyness to find
the big wide world is waiting
so how will you greet it when you leave
just another overprepared know nothing
or a budding freak

are we a joke
was i mistaken to believe
that you were something
i could achieve
so i guess its time to move on like before
because its over once more
before anything had begun

and under the harsh sun
out in the heat
i will melt for you
when my heart is done defrosting
i froze my blood and dove into the sea
so i would be out of my misery

youll never see me smile again
ill never crack this icy peak
to which i adhere my skin
and wait patiently
for new ships to sink

hear my siren call i pray you come looking
hell hath no fury lke that of me
and to think
i once was so full of sympathy
so hear my siren call i pray that you come looking

darling, i dont love you anymore

the truth is im not okay
but i strive really hard for it to be that way
and i cant take
another failure in your wake
its not fair to be left holding in the air
when all i want now is to deflate

could you be someone to love
there was a time i thought
you might be sent from above
but now i see your the devil in disguise
and i could have been your prize
but you gave me up as so many before
and now im sitting here
wondering what for

even the bad ones go away
the ones you were never searching for
the ones that just seemed to go your way
and isnt it great
how some things never change

you could at least pretend that your glad to see me
deep down in your heart of darkness theres something worth saving
or so i believed
and yet you look at me
with disgust in your eyes and i cant help but wonder
will i always wonder why
your just the latest catastrophy that i had to survive
whats it for
all i can say is that i dont hate
but darling i dont love you anymore

say this in closing

the lights are flickering
soon therell be none at all
once again its time to grow up
once again its time for you to move on

pick up your things and walk out into the world
to find where we belong
or to keep on moving on
with no direction

so now your off to see what you can find
you waited 17 years to figure out if it was all a waste of your time
who knows what your future holds
its all up in the air,

will you be who you wanted to be
or will you settle for the path your parents took
will you rise above or will you slip into the nook
and fade in with the walls
for one moment you can feel alright
feel dignified , feel triumphant when your name is called

but who can say what will happen next
your education failed you,
now wait in line for your unemployment checks
the acceptance letter got lost in the mail
now your content with wasting your life just chasing your tail

you keep convincing yourself that its not worth giving up
just wait it out and hopefully your time will come
living life just to be the teachers pet
all that learning, and all your left with is regret

your lifes half over and your such a fool
you could have lived but your too busy being the talk of the stenopool
this in closing is the last chance we'll have to feel alright
from here on out everyday is gonna be a fight

for some its a struggle everyday just to live
and for the rest its getting over the despicable things that you did
to secure your place under the boss grace
misguided ambitionary was it worht it to win the race
and did you find
that the prize was on the other side?

this in closing
is a statement to reinforce
the morals and false truths that we promise to uphold
just to forget them when things get tough
when you make it to the top will it ever be enough
to satisfy your blood lust,

the dark side of ambition
is that its an irreversable condition
and all the guilt and all the shame
cannot bring back the friendships you have slain
you took the path most traveled , and arent your role models proud
just another carbon copy that the system churned out

for the few , left of you who avoid this fate
keep your chins up while their spitting in your face
your may not eat for three weeks at a time
but know that its not a mirage your seeking behind your finish line

for those of us , who learned nothing in school
for those who the system failed who broke all the right rules
for those who scraped by and who nearly failed
you are the ones who will suffer but will blaze the trail

so fake your smiles for the cameras now
take your diplomas and take a bow
grow up and brace yourself
because the time for procrastination
and preparation has run out
take a deep breath bite your lip because the future is now

raise a glass, and heres to hoping
this in closing