have your cake and choke on it too

just another nail in the coffin
you break your vows
and change hands often
your one who trys to preach
but youve got no soul that you can reach

ive got a reason
for this that im feelin
its a fed up hatred
and hating to be used

" your just a pointless mission
never know what you are missing
cause your never in one place for a long time
your gonna get caught one day in your lies
and noones gonna be on your side

what will you do , when im not there for you
because god knows you wouldnt be there for me
so why is it that im supposed to be a bad friend
when i cant service your every whim
but your not to blame when i need something "

you can never take the truth
because its to harsh to hear
you get so wrapped up in your selfishness
that you'll say anything and try to make it sincere
if it gets you what you came for , then therse no problems here

get me a drink
so that i can think
clearly when im talking to you
ive got to be out of my mind
to understand the stupid things that you do

so tell me what is your problem now
how will the mellodrama play out

is this a new episode
feels like a re run
because its always the same thing you know
tell the same sob story
it wont work on me cause im done

" your just a pointless mission
never know what you are missing
cause your never in one place for a long time
your gonna get caught one day in your lies
and noones gonna be on your side

what will you do , when im not there for you
because god knows you wouldnt be there for me
so why is it that im supposed to be a bad friend
when i cant service your every whim
but your not to blame when i need something "

just another nail in the coffin
you tell lies so often
that its astounding you remember your name
well theres only one question i have
why did you bother , why have you came

just another nail in the coffin
youve got no reasons to be here
well tell me my dear
when are you going to quit
and how is it that i could forget

im done with everything
im going to sit back and watch you hang
because to me now you dont mean a thing

Theology

tie my hands, so i wont break any bones
lock me down , so i dont lose control
talk me down , cause theres no way out of this
not that i see, all i see is emptyness

Silver tongued
and piercing gaze
breaking down my wall
indiscriminate hate

" your eyes like the pit of my soul
your wind lifting up my hollow bones
take flight my soul
and leave the rest lost and faded
fill me with a hope that cant be tainted

fill me with your night
take it away so contrast makes me bright
whisper to me and bring me to life"

hold my skin to this flesh
so it wont slip away
drown out my sorrow ,
so it cannot stain

pull me in
then wash me down
swallow me whole
then spit me out

leave my body breathless
broken in the ground
cover me in earth
as your lower it down
remember me perfect
so you'll have no reasons to forget


" your eyes like the pit of my soul
your wind lifting up my hollow bones
take flight my soul
and leave the rest lost and faded
fill me with a hope that cant be tainted

fill me with your night
take it away so contrast makes me bright
whisper to me and bring me to life"

i dont believe in gods
but i believe its true
something in all of us
exists to bring something else through

were never gonna find it
if we try to look
something this great
you cant define in a book

so they call me a sinner
they'd wish to excommunicate
if only they could
if only i came

they'll call me a heathen
brand me insane
doing the world a favor
putting hot lead in my brain

if it makes you feel better
because my eyes are open
and ill never see the same

" your eyes like the pit of my soul
your wind lifting up my hollow bones
take flight my soul
and leave the rest lost and faded
fill me with a hope that cant be tainted

fill me with your night
take it away so contrast makes me bright
whisper to me and bring me to life"

so fill me with your light
and give me the strength
all i see is good,
unlike those who are tamed
by the fear, of what
they refuse to understand
they never would , doesnt matter if they can

i found faith, in a lack of belief
i found that god brings noone relief
this is so much older
its something i can touch
if you dont want to hear it
well then cling to your crutch

my eyes are open
and finally i see
the things that held me back
were the laws that i believed
so i found balance in something i can feel
it isnt whats popular
but its something that is real

i hope they burry me deep beneat the soil
i hope they think , that they can damn my soul
well heres to hopin'
and heres to us "lost souls"
cause my eyes are open
and they'll never make them close

mission statments of the defiant

reconcile your imperfection
so you can mollify your pain
focus on your own addictions
and alleviate the strain

its all about convictions
and can you sanctify your name
get up off your high perch
and learn to fly again

" dont turn the lights out
cause im not going home
give me a place to stand
and i will move the earth
a heart is just a broken thing
that i dont have and dont deserve
so dont pick me up let me learn this on my own
but dont turn the lights out cause im not goin home"

preach your words into my ears
sedate my disbelief and disavow my fear
that maybe im not good enough
pierce the veil around my soul its tough
but you can take away my tears
and though my edges are rough
dont give up when i can almost hear

" dont turn the lights out
cause im not going home
wont give it up now
i can make it on my own
its not that i dont need help
im just to dependant on myself
to know when its okay
to let someone else bare the strain
and i dont want to feel like ive left you in the rain
if i take your helping hand and escape
so dont give up your almost through
your message is painful but its true
and i dont know what to do
if i cant do iton my own
so dont turn the lights out
cause i cant stand to be alone"

the stars are falling once again
and i can catch them in my filth hands
will you dance
teach me the steps
and we will turn back the clock
if only for a minute

give me a chance
to show you my world
and just observe
the changes i have made
to survive all the hardship thrown at me
would you think me weak
or would you applaud me

would you tell me i did good
or would you cut me out again
can you hear
are you listening
am i talking to myself
somethings even to you i cant explain

there are these things
that make it difficult
im not forgetting
but i would forgive you anything
im not upset its just no shock to me
that when everything falls down
i turn around ,
and once again
your nowhere to be found

" dont turn the lights out
cause i dont want to go home
im not ready to call it quits
even as the curtain closes
im quite used to being alone
i think i can make it on my own
leave me anywhere you want
but you cant take me home
becuase theres nowhere i can go
and call it home

give me a moment and break me
and i will repair the tear
hold my heart to your heart and swear
that you will be there
dont turn the lights out
its not over theres more to be shown
dont turn the lights out
cause im not ready to go home"

Corporate sacrifice

the sun never sets on the british empire
the evil planet smiles
all of the plans that were set into motion
have born the fruit of cruel desires

chaining the inferior and te different
while silencing the rebel cries
called to arms we have found a demon
to which we can pin our lies

we gave a cause for the social schism
we persecute and we call it right
no one will question our good intentions
they hold the guns but we set their sights

profits are turned when the worlds in opposition
the more we make from the more who die
why should we care for the innocent
when we mint gold from their blood and their lives

" its all about placing blame
more havoc induced is more money to claim
noone will question the situation we have made
moral heros sharpen your blades

massacre the children in the night
we sit behind our false idols
at the base of golden walls we hide
hoist your banner your the face of progress
encourage killing cause it makes your stocks rise"

the sun never sets
the sun never dies
the sun never sets
forget your sympathy and fall in line

" its all about placing blame
more havoc induced is more money to claim
no one will question the situation we have made
moral heros sharpen your blades

massacre the children in the night
so they dont grow up and learn to fight
we sit behind our false idols
at the base of golden walls we hide
your the face of false progress
so carry your banner high
encourage killing cause it makes your stocks rise"

fires will burn the village down
destroy the huts and tents and build a town
clear out the locals its the kings land now

educate the heathens and call them civilized
we conquered the new world forget the ones who were here first
the whole maps colonized
raise the flag , theyll never get it back
no matter how hard they try

" its all about placing blame
more havoc induced is more money to claim
no one will question the situation we have made
moral heros sharpen your blades

massacre the children in the night
so they dont grow up and learn to fight
we sit behind our false idols
at the base of golden walls we hide
your the face of false progress
so carry your banner high
encourage killing cause it makes your stocks rise"

the sun never sets
the sun never dies
forget your regrets, fall in line
hail to the new world order
her holy empire never will she die
burn all the pages in history
that claim what we did wasnt right
its just another corporate sacrifice

Show and tell , SHot in 9 millimeter

 twitching eyes glance down the barrel
of a loaded god complex with a lasting cap heart
and now were all in peril ,
as he threatens to tear himself apart
his veins are full of gasoline
hes got c4 in his liver and his spleen
we should have seen this coming

hearts collide at the speed of sound
the lights go up and we paint the town
a whole new kind of red
and how could they forget
hes gonna make them listen
and he has spoken
with no words but it left you broken

could you believe
what your seeing with your eyes
as the fire grows and the fumes black out the sky
can you blame him
for something he felt was the only way out
he kissed the gun, with a bullet in the spout
and now hes spoken , now hes spoken
and it cannot be undone

 bullets fly at the speed of sound
he closed his eyes and branded this town
a killer with a heart of stone
painted the town , a whole new shade of red
and you can not forget, what hes said
now hes spoken , now hes spoken

look to the mirror if your searching for the reason
everyone who never had the time
and as the muzzle flash glistened
he found a way to make them listen
isnt it a perfect commentary
on the kind of world we live in

he searched his whole damn life
for a way to end his strife
and he traded in his knife
for something a little more theatrical
and powerful
he was always hard to handle
but noone seemed to care why
so he gave destruction a try

and as your guilt is settling
and you ask yourself why he did it
how can you blame him
he tried so hard for your attention
well he finally found a way to make you listen

Relat-(ion)-sinking-ships

"the past is the past
or so they say
but i cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
and my oh my, isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
and hes the lucky one
so why do you keep
dialing my number all the time
just to feed me the same old tired lines"

i cut my hair and dyed my bangs
change my earrings and my name
and somehow i still fall for your type
and after everyone of them is gone
i still see your face
oh isnt he the lucky one
but does he know the secrets your hiding
and how you just cant
keep my name out of your mouth
maybe its time you figure this out

" the past is the past
or so they say
but i just cant help
brining it up in these social outings
and my oh my isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
isnt he the lucky one
so why do you keep dialing
my number all the time
just to feed me
the same old tired lines"

i gave you my time for free
and kept your sullied memory
you didnt want to keep me
good to know im only worth fucking
and they wonder why im low on self esteem

"the past is the past or so they say
but i cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
and my oh my isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
and hes the lucky one
so why do you keep dialing
my number all the time
just to feed me
the same tired lines"

arent these the places
and the faces
we still treasure mutually
you seem distressed
but your the one thats haunting me
and lately ive been thinking

"the past is the past or so they say
but i just cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
and my oh my isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
and hes the lucky one
so why do you keep dialing
my number all the time
just to give me
the same tired lines"

well maybe im too good for you
but why are we both still longing
your friends could never mean anything
but yet you choose pretty faces and accuainting
over love and extacy

"the past is the past or so they say
but i cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
and my oh my isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
and hes the lucky one
so why do you keep dialing
my number all the time
to give me the same tired lines"

well when you get back to your
charades and poker
remember that for a moment you let
your guard recede for me
pardon me for being upset
when i thought that meant something
keep trying to forget
and crawl back to your closet

The past is the past or so they say
but i cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
i express what you try to repress
but why are you so ashamed and why are you hiding
tag your it because im done with counting
if you want me again well good luck finding
love once lost cant be reclaimed
yet i still fall for your type
the same pretty faces to whom i am nothing
more than just a fling