carcinogen lullaby

for what its worth to you
have a good time while you can
do what you want to do
while your still livin with mom and dad

well ill do what i want and buy what i please
cause now i can do anything finally free finally 18
andwe were already drinking long before we learned how to drive

but today you woke up from the day dream
just to find
your paychecks on delay
but all the bills arrived on time

now all the money is gonna pay the overdraft fees
there'll  be nothing left for groceries
how oh how will you survive

its time again to hit the streets
to find a way to make ends meet and pay the rent
you better hurry up and get famous kid

how will you survive?

- i cant think of a better reason to get loaded
your depressed and your anxious,
filling through the bank statements
coming up short again
i couldnt make up a better reason to be loaded
the best that you can do to cope
is to smoke until your chokin
and your lungs are givin in

all the frustration
calls for a mild sedation
just to handle the nerves so you
can get through
need to slip under the grip
of a nicotene dream
so for a moment you can breathe
i couldnt think of a better reason to get loaded

" this is my carcinogen lullaby
i need to die a little
just so i can feel alright
so i can try to get through the night -

the house is trashed
your gonna have to pay for that
with the money you dont have

can you see a pattern forming

some get it all but the ones like us will never have nothing
could you find a better reason to get loaded
-
by yourself  your not coping
in one week we'll be on the streets
you need help , therapys expensive
but cigarettes are cheap
needing a break from reality
gonna slip into the safety
of a nicotene dream its so comforting"

this is my carcinogen lullaby
you know its not a popular answer
but we might not even live to see cancer
anyway all we know is that today is too much
you need a crutch to hold you
when your pressed up against a wall
something to cushion the fall

carcinogen lullaby , make me feel allright
fix me up and take me out
help me from feeling let down

.. and at the party
your pissed cause your the one whos driving
got to hide the embarassing truth that your starving
but let them have their fun
who needs to know that your dying

a little everyday

got suspended from work indefinitely
 , how will you survive?
the moneys all run out , and time is ticking
now your slipping

how will you survive
your just a small fish in a large ocean

could you find a better reason to get loaded

" this is my carcinogen lullaby
 yeah i need a little help to get through the night
my head is going numb i just want to feel alright
how will we survive
this is my carcinogen lullaby
its not a socially respected answer
but i doubt ill even live to see cancer
so might as well  does anyone have a light?

pressed up against a wall
need a crutch to hold me up
and cushion my fall
can you make me feel alright?"

life isnt always what it seems
some seem to get it all meanwhile your getting nothing
just bad news and rejection apologies
no way to settle the score
self medicating
is just so  comforting

live it out but the stress is fracturing
we all need help cant find ourselves
we need to get lost for a while its time for discombobulating
to distract us from the pain

sing yourself to sleep
say goodnight and close your eyes
if only for five minutes of time
this is my carcinogen lullaby
its bittersweet but its what i need to keep me alive
you know we've got to live fast because tomorrow we may well die
does anyone have a light ?

the dark side of ambition

so dr. jekyl tell me about your situation
is it true what theyre saying about you
or is it just speculation
i think we should shed a little light on the subject
take out our magnifying glass, anylize the subtext

well if your one to complain
its only evidence to your shame
your gonna have to try a little harder
to substantiate your claims

no no no

it never happened this way
i never touched the blame
i have nothing for which to be ashamed
i am not the one you seek
so quit pointing your fingers at me

......

laying down on the concrete
with the evidence in hand
a puddle of blood
makes it a self defense
youve got no control
everyone take your pitty to him
spare the man let the monster inside be condemned

.......

so jack the ripper
remember to fasten your zipper
been prowling the streets too long
i know that somethings going on

well your always avoiding
trying to keep in the shadows out of sight
well isnt it time to let the truth come to light

.......
 well youve got nothing left to gain
better wallow in your pain
its a crime of passion you see
theres no sin on me

play out your sympathy
to fool the judge and your jury
you might have them fooled
but your not playing by the rules

explain your sorrow to them
they might believe
but i know what it is your hiding
..........

the lies that you carry out
concealed behind the doubt
isnt it time you let your secrets out
dont keep them bottled up inside
the more you try to hide
the more you get caught up in your lies

oh dear count of mine
why is your mouth red all the time
well tell me honestly
got a habbit for good storys
but fictions not what im after
dont need a happily ever after
just need the truth at any cost


well if your one to complain
its only evidence to your shame
your gonna have to try a little harder
to substantiate your claims

the more you stay around the scene
the more i seem to notice when you linger
the more you proffess your innocence
the more you point the finger
 at your at your self
well your lying doesnt help

........
 im not the one to blame
ive got nothing to be ashamed
and if you need the proof right now your gonna have to wait
my alibys being staged

and the more you say

it never happened this way
i the one to blame
i have nothing for which to be ashamed
i am not the one you seek
so quit pointing your fingers at me