carcinogen lullaby

for what its worth to you
have a good time while you can
do what you want to do
while your still livin with mom and dad

well ill do what i want and buy what i please
cause now i can do anything finally free finally 18
andwe were already drinking long before we learned how to drive

but today you woke up from the day dream
just to find
your paychecks on delay
but all the bills arrived on time

now all the money is gonna pay the overdraft fees
there'll  be nothing left for groceries
how oh how will you survive

its time again to hit the streets
to find a way to make ends meet and pay the rent
you better hurry up and get famous kid

how will you survive?

- i cant think of a better reason to get loaded
your depressed and your anxious,
filling through the bank statements
coming up short again
i couldnt make up a better reason to be loaded
the best that you can do to cope
is to smoke until your chokin
and your lungs are givin in

all the frustration
calls for a mild sedation
just to handle the nerves so you
can get through
need to slip under the grip
of a nicotene dream
so for a moment you can breathe
i couldnt think of a better reason to get loaded

" this is my carcinogen lullaby
i need to die a little
just so i can feel alright
so i can try to get through the night -

the house is trashed
your gonna have to pay for that
with the money you dont have

can you see a pattern forming

some get it all but the ones like us will never have nothing
could you find a better reason to get loaded
-
by yourself  your not coping
in one week we'll be on the streets
you need help , therapys expensive
but cigarettes are cheap
needing a break from reality
gonna slip into the safety
of a nicotene dream its so comforting"

this is my carcinogen lullaby
you know its not a popular answer
but we might not even live to see cancer
anyway all we know is that today is too much
you need a crutch to hold you
when your pressed up against a wall
something to cushion the fall

carcinogen lullaby , make me feel allright
fix me up and take me out
help me from feeling let down

.. and at the party
your pissed cause your the one whos driving
got to hide the embarassing truth that your starving
but let them have their fun
who needs to know that your dying

a little everyday

got suspended from work indefinitely
 , how will you survive?
the moneys all run out , and time is ticking
now your slipping

how will you survive
your just a small fish in a large ocean

could you find a better reason to get loaded

" this is my carcinogen lullaby
 yeah i need a little help to get through the night
my head is going numb i just want to feel alright
how will we survive
this is my carcinogen lullaby
its not a socially respected answer
but i doubt ill even live to see cancer
so might as well  does anyone have a light?

pressed up against a wall
need a crutch to hold me up
and cushion my fall
can you make me feel alright?"

life isnt always what it seems
some seem to get it all meanwhile your getting nothing
just bad news and rejection apologies
no way to settle the score
self medicating
is just so  comforting

live it out but the stress is fracturing
we all need help cant find ourselves
we need to get lost for a while its time for discombobulating
to distract us from the pain

sing yourself to sleep
say goodnight and close your eyes
if only for five minutes of time
this is my carcinogen lullaby
its bittersweet but its what i need to keep me alive
you know we've got to live fast because tomorrow we may well die
does anyone have a light ?