have your cake and choke on it too

just another nail in the coffin
you break your vows
and change hands often
your one who trys to preach
but youve got no soul that you can reach

ive got a reason
for this that im feelin
its a fed up hatred
and hating to be used

" your just a pointless mission
never know what you are missing
cause your never in one place for a long time
your gonna get caught one day in your lies
and noones gonna be on your side

what will you do , when im not there for you
because god knows you wouldnt be there for me
so why is it that im supposed to be a bad friend
when i cant service your every whim
but your not to blame when i need something "

you can never take the truth
because its to harsh to hear
you get so wrapped up in your selfishness
that you'll say anything and try to make it sincere
if it gets you what you came for , then therse no problems here

get me a drink
so that i can think
clearly when im talking to you
ive got to be out of my mind
to understand the stupid things that you do

so tell me what is your problem now
how will the mellodrama play out

is this a new episode
feels like a re run
because its always the same thing you know
tell the same sob story
it wont work on me cause im done

" your just a pointless mission
never know what you are missing
cause your never in one place for a long time
your gonna get caught one day in your lies
and noones gonna be on your side

what will you do , when im not there for you
because god knows you wouldnt be there for me
so why is it that im supposed to be a bad friend
when i cant service your every whim
but your not to blame when i need something "

just another nail in the coffin
you tell lies so often
that its astounding you remember your name
well theres only one question i have
why did you bother , why have you came

just another nail in the coffin
youve got no reasons to be here
well tell me my dear
when are you going to quit
and how is it that i could forget

im done with everything
im going to sit back and watch you hang
because to me now you dont mean a thing

Theology

tie my hands, so i wont break any bones
lock me down , so i dont lose control
talk me down , cause theres no way out of this
not that i see, all i see is emptyness

Silver tongued
and piercing gaze
breaking down my wall
indiscriminate hate

" your eyes like the pit of my soul
your wind lifting up my hollow bones
take flight my soul
and leave the rest lost and faded
fill me with a hope that cant be tainted

fill me with your night
take it away so contrast makes me bright
whisper to me and bring me to life"

hold my skin to this flesh
so it wont slip away
drown out my sorrow ,
so it cannot stain

pull me in
then wash me down
swallow me whole
then spit me out

leave my body breathless
broken in the ground
cover me in earth
as your lower it down
remember me perfect
so you'll have no reasons to forget


" your eyes like the pit of my soul
your wind lifting up my hollow bones
take flight my soul
and leave the rest lost and faded
fill me with a hope that cant be tainted

fill me with your night
take it away so contrast makes me bright
whisper to me and bring me to life"

i dont believe in gods
but i believe its true
something in all of us
exists to bring something else through

were never gonna find it
if we try to look
something this great
you cant define in a book

so they call me a sinner
they'd wish to excommunicate
if only they could
if only i came

they'll call me a heathen
brand me insane
doing the world a favor
putting hot lead in my brain

if it makes you feel better
because my eyes are open
and ill never see the same

" your eyes like the pit of my soul
your wind lifting up my hollow bones
take flight my soul
and leave the rest lost and faded
fill me with a hope that cant be tainted

fill me with your night
take it away so contrast makes me bright
whisper to me and bring me to life"

so fill me with your light
and give me the strength
all i see is good,
unlike those who are tamed
by the fear, of what
they refuse to understand
they never would , doesnt matter if they can

i found faith, in a lack of belief
i found that god brings noone relief
this is so much older
its something i can touch
if you dont want to hear it
well then cling to your crutch

my eyes are open
and finally i see
the things that held me back
were the laws that i believed
so i found balance in something i can feel
it isnt whats popular
but its something that is real

i hope they burry me deep beneat the soil
i hope they think , that they can damn my soul
well heres to hopin'
and heres to us "lost souls"
cause my eyes are open
and they'll never make them close

mission statments of the defiant

reconcile your imperfection
so you can mollify your pain
focus on your own addictions
and alleviate the strain

its all about convictions
and can you sanctify your name
get up off your high perch
and learn to fly again

" dont turn the lights out
cause im not going home
give me a place to stand
and i will move the earth
a heart is just a broken thing
that i dont have and dont deserve
so dont pick me up let me learn this on my own
but dont turn the lights out cause im not goin home"

preach your words into my ears
sedate my disbelief and disavow my fear
that maybe im not good enough
pierce the veil around my soul its tough
but you can take away my tears
and though my edges are rough
dont give up when i can almost hear

" dont turn the lights out
cause im not going home
wont give it up now
i can make it on my own
its not that i dont need help
im just to dependant on myself
to know when its okay
to let someone else bare the strain
and i dont want to feel like ive left you in the rain
if i take your helping hand and escape
so dont give up your almost through
your message is painful but its true
and i dont know what to do
if i cant do iton my own
so dont turn the lights out
cause i cant stand to be alone"

the stars are falling once again
and i can catch them in my filth hands
will you dance
teach me the steps
and we will turn back the clock
if only for a minute

give me a chance
to show you my world
and just observe
the changes i have made
to survive all the hardship thrown at me
would you think me weak
or would you applaud me

would you tell me i did good
or would you cut me out again
can you hear
are you listening
am i talking to myself
somethings even to you i cant explain

there are these things
that make it difficult
im not forgetting
but i would forgive you anything
im not upset its just no shock to me
that when everything falls down
i turn around ,
and once again
your nowhere to be found

" dont turn the lights out
cause i dont want to go home
im not ready to call it quits
even as the curtain closes
im quite used to being alone
i think i can make it on my own
leave me anywhere you want
but you cant take me home
becuase theres nowhere i can go
and call it home

give me a moment and break me
and i will repair the tear
hold my heart to your heart and swear
that you will be there
dont turn the lights out
its not over theres more to be shown
dont turn the lights out
cause im not ready to go home"

Corporate sacrifice

the sun never sets on the british empire
the evil planet smiles
all of the plans that were set into motion
have born the fruit of cruel desires

chaining the inferior and te different
while silencing the rebel cries
called to arms we have found a demon
to which we can pin our lies

we gave a cause for the social schism
we persecute and we call it right
no one will question our good intentions
they hold the guns but we set their sights

profits are turned when the worlds in opposition
the more we make from the more who die
why should we care for the innocent
when we mint gold from their blood and their lives

" its all about placing blame
more havoc induced is more money to claim
noone will question the situation we have made
moral heros sharpen your blades

massacre the children in the night
we sit behind our false idols
at the base of golden walls we hide
hoist your banner your the face of progress
encourage killing cause it makes your stocks rise"

the sun never sets
the sun never dies
the sun never sets
forget your sympathy and fall in line

" its all about placing blame
more havoc induced is more money to claim
no one will question the situation we have made
moral heros sharpen your blades

massacre the children in the night
so they dont grow up and learn to fight
we sit behind our false idols
at the base of golden walls we hide
your the face of false progress
so carry your banner high
encourage killing cause it makes your stocks rise"

fires will burn the village down
destroy the huts and tents and build a town
clear out the locals its the kings land now

educate the heathens and call them civilized
we conquered the new world forget the ones who were here first
the whole maps colonized
raise the flag , theyll never get it back
no matter how hard they try

" its all about placing blame
more havoc induced is more money to claim
no one will question the situation we have made
moral heros sharpen your blades

massacre the children in the night
so they dont grow up and learn to fight
we sit behind our false idols
at the base of golden walls we hide
your the face of false progress
so carry your banner high
encourage killing cause it makes your stocks rise"

the sun never sets
the sun never dies
forget your regrets, fall in line
hail to the new world order
her holy empire never will she die
burn all the pages in history
that claim what we did wasnt right
its just another corporate sacrifice

Show and tell , SHot in 9 millimeter

 twitching eyes glance down the barrel
of a loaded god complex with a lasting cap heart
and now were all in peril ,
as he threatens to tear himself apart
his veins are full of gasoline
hes got c4 in his liver and his spleen
we should have seen this coming

hearts collide at the speed of sound
the lights go up and we paint the town
a whole new kind of red
and how could they forget
hes gonna make them listen
and he has spoken
with no words but it left you broken

could you believe
what your seeing with your eyes
as the fire grows and the fumes black out the sky
can you blame him
for something he felt was the only way out
he kissed the gun, with a bullet in the spout
and now hes spoken , now hes spoken
and it cannot be undone

 bullets fly at the speed of sound
he closed his eyes and branded this town
a killer with a heart of stone
painted the town , a whole new shade of red
and you can not forget, what hes said
now hes spoken , now hes spoken

look to the mirror if your searching for the reason
everyone who never had the time
and as the muzzle flash glistened
he found a way to make them listen
isnt it a perfect commentary
on the kind of world we live in

he searched his whole damn life
for a way to end his strife
and he traded in his knife
for something a little more theatrical
and powerful
he was always hard to handle
but noone seemed to care why
so he gave destruction a try

and as your guilt is settling
and you ask yourself why he did it
how can you blame him
he tried so hard for your attention
well he finally found a way to make you listen

Relat-(ion)-sinking-ships

"the past is the past
or so they say
but i cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
and my oh my, isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
and hes the lucky one
so why do you keep
dialing my number all the time
just to feed me the same old tired lines"

i cut my hair and dyed my bangs
change my earrings and my name
and somehow i still fall for your type
and after everyone of them is gone
i still see your face
oh isnt he the lucky one
but does he know the secrets your hiding
and how you just cant
keep my name out of your mouth
maybe its time you figure this out

" the past is the past
or so they say
but i just cant help
brining it up in these social outings
and my oh my isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
isnt he the lucky one
so why do you keep dialing
my number all the time
just to feed me
the same old tired lines"

i gave you my time for free
and kept your sullied memory
you didnt want to keep me
good to know im only worth fucking
and they wonder why im low on self esteem

"the past is the past or so they say
but i cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
and my oh my isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
and hes the lucky one
so why do you keep dialing
my number all the time
just to feed me
the same tired lines"

arent these the places
and the faces
we still treasure mutually
you seem distressed
but your the one thats haunting me
and lately ive been thinking

"the past is the past or so they say
but i just cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
and my oh my isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
and hes the lucky one
so why do you keep dialing
my number all the time
just to give me
the same tired lines"

well maybe im too good for you
but why are we both still longing
your friends could never mean anything
but yet you choose pretty faces and accuainting
over love and extacy

"the past is the past or so they say
but i cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
and my oh my isnt it astounding
how people never change
your still the same
and hes the lucky one
so why do you keep dialing
my number all the time
to give me the same tired lines"

well when you get back to your
charades and poker
remember that for a moment you let
your guard recede for me
pardon me for being upset
when i thought that meant something
keep trying to forget
and crawl back to your closet

The past is the past or so they say
but i cant help bringing it up
in these social outings
i express what you try to repress
but why are you so ashamed and why are you hiding
tag your it because im done with counting
if you want me again well good luck finding
love once lost cant be reclaimed
yet i still fall for your type
the same pretty faces to whom i am nothing
more than just a fling

Building Dieties

i am the walking deity
a demi god in this wicked society,
if anone should challenge me
they will walk with me
in heaven for all of eternity ,

empty promises reap no rewards,
and hollow point wit is no match for swords,
its a crazy world we live in and were all mad,
so wipe the frown from your face
and quit feeling sad,
we paint this world perfect
and become what we dream ,
because reality is never truely how it seems

watch the colors run as they bleed
through the canvas
the tallest man is no greater than the praying mantis
its all in the perspective and my view is clear
theres no escape once you enter here

the rabbit hole
is swallowing
the last remnants of this so called reality
it detonates the realm in which we live
and brings us back to being primitive

we build then we break
we destroy to grow
if humanity is civilized then you must not know
the terror that we cause on a day to day
we kill our own kind, and masquerade
we break all our rules, and put man before all
we stab each other in the backs and murder all that crawls
the earth is ours to claim, so keep your aim straight
the gods will fall, and olympus waits

" what are you waiting for
isnt this why you were born
to become another cog in the machine
or do your dreams lead you to something more
forge your own destiny
and give purpose to the empty
break apart the chaos and make it perfect
you are the hero of your own epic
time to be a man to settle the score
the future that your waiting for is outthe front door"

take this breath and hold your ground
exhale with hurricane force but make no sound
keep your stance straight and your back erect
reign over everything that the light reflects
suit up and ship out sail away
the spils of war are won and lost based on your fate
theres no escape but dont lose your will
your bound to your calling and bring all of your skill
tonight we dine in hell so have no fear
we go down fighting or we were never here
be remembered and become something great
your destiny is based on what you create

" what are you waiting for
isnt this why you were born
to become another cog in the machine
or do your dreams lead you to something more
forge your own destiny
and give purpose to the empty
break apart the chaos and make it perfect
you are the hero of your own epic
time to be a man to settle the score
the future that your waiting for is outthe front door"

what are you waiting for the futures right here
enough with your doubting give up your fear
feel the sweat as it coats your face
the exits are blocked so make a way
heros never run,
and villains never give up
its now or never, are you good or corupt
the decisions are black and white
so will you run like a child or be a god and fight

" what are you waiting for
isnt this why you were born
to become another cog in the machine
or do your dreams lead you to something more
forge your own destiny
and give purpose to the empty
break apart the chaos and make it perfect
you are the hero of your own epic
time to be a man to settle the score
the future that your waiting for is out the front door"

and now you breath your dying breath
hold it in let it fill your chest
feel the prosperity
and walk into the light
we are the walking deities
and we conquer olympus tonight

Substantiate

 noone can climb the mountaintop ,
 its far too high
the walls we build reach toward the sky,
the sun will be blotted
by the blackness in our soul
and the world will grow
barron and cold,
the lines we draw in sand
are washed away,
the footprints we leave
are encased in clay,
and we will never be forgotten,
for the terrible attrocities we perpotrate,
under the guise of the innocent mistake

broadcasting what we pretend to be ashamed
and crucifying those who arent the same
we are the only ones who cause our pain
what are we living for , and when theres noone left
who is it that you blame

collecting hearts to sacrifice
to our empty void
and give us life
we waste what we get
and feel no regret
because its just so easy
to wash your hands of it
and hide the secrets away

we treat life like a toy
and we fight against each other
and trade old friends for new lovers
giving it all away at the first bid
we poison ourselves
and crash and burn
we cant prepare
because we never learn

collecting hearts to sacrifice
to our empty void
to feel new life
because were all too afraid to die
but not prepared to live
were stuck in between
and cant get over the hill
we climb and we climb,
and we get nowhere
the more we get
the less we care

hold a glass high for the damaged
at least we have character
we will learn to manage
we will never quit and never surrender
the demographic is not ours to claim
and we dont fit in and yet were to blame
so propose a toast for the lost and broken
for those who keep heads high
 with our eyes wide open
normal is defective so forgive me when i decline
this dream that your forcing , is not one of mine

Curtain Call

turn up the lights
let me see you fall
grace the floor
on your knees now crawl

I am the show
and you get what you pay for
you oughta know
youve got to buy your time
bathe me in the spotlight
and follow my decline

nose to the sky
parading like a god
excess on high
the lights are too damn hot
but ive got it all im in my prime
isnt it amazing
yeah and isnt it sublime

i am the show
and you get what you pay for
you oughta know
youve got to buy your time
bathe me in the spotlight
and follow my decline

my heels are aching
my heart is breaking
and the lines are showing
as my make ups flaking
can you take a break
and call an intermission
i need to satidfy my superstitions
isnt it hard to handle
strike the match and burn this candle
and watch it glow
cath me
im a falling star
and it is to be said
that we are who we are

i am the show
im the leading man
you know
i payed my dues
and its my time
bathe me in spotlight
and follow my decline
hold your lines
give me my moment
mad like a hornet
ive got you all under my claws
and in my spell
this is a private hell
and its time to go on
let the drama flow
everyone will know
i am the show

everyone
is just the same
they dont care
they just bare witness to my shame
i earned the fame
but took it too far
yelling pull the curtain
staring at the headlights of an oncomong car
i am the star
and this is my tragic demise
you alone can make me into something
something i despise
and i dont know why
i live like this
its like heroin to me
and i just cant resist

i am the show
im the leading man
dont you know
i did my time
i played all the characters
and worked my way up the line
into the prime
now i sit here on my pedestal
as the empire meets its demise

I am the show
im the leading man
dont you know
payed my dues it is my time
now let me shine
bathe me in the spotlight
take care and follow my decline

the pay is bad the hours are slow
you watched me grow
youll watch me die
snap your fingers and on cue i will cry
look what i built , it glimmers beautifully
who would of thought it would be what destroyed me

I am the show
im the leading man
dont you know
hold the line
bathe me in the spotlight
and follow my decline
the more we hurt the more we grow
the more you live the more you know
never stop and take it slow
everybody knows
im the main attraction
sit back and enjoy the action

I am the show
im the leading man
dont you know
i payed my dues
time after time
bathe me in the spotlight
and watch me as i shine
careful dont lose me
follow me into my decline
we are our only foes
for heaven knows
its gotta end sometime
living life inside the glow
of flashing lights
I am the show

Suicide doors spoil all the fun

interesting to say the least
your a misunderstanding
part of the bigger beast
of politics and bad planning
your just another statistic that broke the mold
but your never gonna get back to the life that you sold
and is it cold out there, out there on your own
take a still frame,fixing up your heart of shame
your a project thats behind the deadline
waiting for a lifeline

press eject
hit the button and get away
run as far as you can
try and escape your disgace
smiling like a vandal
clinging tight to the handle
of your getaway car

youve got the gasoline
while drinking kerosene
swallow your molotov coctail
light the fuse send em all to hell
youve got the drakest soul that ive ever seen
but its alright
your interesting to say the least
just a cog in the gears of the disaster machine
kid your gonna be fine

so drop all of your inspirations
find a new way to infiltrate the system
and send it all computer virus style crashing down
hot the lights cue the explosion sounds
youve got an sadistic way of partying

press eject hit the button and get away
fast as you can, gotta make yourself a better man
your a little rattlesnake with withdrawl shakes
need excitment just to give you a high
well theyre all fake ,
make em pay before they give you a ride
smiling like a vandal
clinging tight to the handle
of your getaway car

ill be your driver
so grab the cash
dead on arrival
show em what you got

we lost our invite to the party
showed up overdressed and tardy
but its allright
and oh boy did the bouncers get quite a show
so grab your guns and here we go
reach it for the sky
wont some preacher come and save my soul
i cant resist the temptation , cause im much too bold

press eject
hit the button and get away
got a tongue like a rattlesnake
but its so convincing
you got me where you want me now
a hot item on the black market
with a run in your stockings
your alright
so come on tonight
lets hit up every easy target that we pass by

press eject hit the button and get away
hide the bullets in the ashtray
hit the gas and run like hell
and even if they catch us
theyre nevver gonna get us to tell
and even if they catch theyll never
ever get us to tell