Broken

the moment i spoke
the second i said those words
i knew i would regret them
because i saw them hurt
but the memories remain
i thought theyd hold me through
i never thought they would wither and be destroyed
by cruel tricks of time,like the scarrings of my youth
the moment i said it
was the moment i saw, the truth

" because your smile is cracke and faded
and you let go of my hand
because my will is worn and dated
and on my own i cannot stand
because you broke me
when i saw you fall apart
and through it all you know,
that you will always have my heart"

symbiotic, or parasitic
either way i just dont care
either way i once knew so well
that you would always have been there
until i let you fall
and i watched myself lose it all
it happened in slow motion as you crumpled down to earth
and then i knew the very instant that i too had been hurt

" because your smile is cracked and faded
and you refuse to hold my hand
and i dont know if ill make it
because on my own ill never stand
i know that i cant change it
but how i wish youd understand
that im broken, becase your broken
and your jaw is left wide open
from the words i wish id never said
your smile is cracked and faded,
with your hand inside my hand
when will we ever learn
when can we breathe again"

so take it all in
and give me your answer
as deep as an ocen
as painful as cancer
i dont really give a damn
just know that i have done
verything that i ever can
to fix this wound
and heal you right
im through with im sorry
im down to are you gonna be allright
because were broken
and we cant reclaim
all that was taken from us
when we turned our backs to one another in our rage
can you forgive me
if you cant i understand
but know tht i will always be here
and im ready to take you by the hand

" your smile though cracked and faded
is the is the light within my eyes
youve got to take my hand
and teach me how to fly
were not broken anymore
no were not broken anymore
tellme its okay
and we can breath again
because were finally repaired
and it feels so good to no longer be broken"

"Rebuild Remake"

 it used to be so easy ,
 looking back i cant believe,
 i didnt think i would get this far,
 now there are different obstacles,
but the questions stay still remain,
 does it ever get real, or does life just stay a game,
 the only thing i know, is about to be ripped away,
 and i dont think i remember how to start over again,
 and i dont think i recall,
how to recover from a fall,
 a descent from my place,
 and how will i reclaim,
what i once knew so well,
 how will i build myself up to my former grace,
 and life was once so challenging staying still,
 now its challenging but in a foreign place

" rebuild, remake
we learn to fix our perceptions when it breaks
rebuild remake
we pick up where we leave off,
and we try to recreate
the world it seems was once a bigger place
rebuild remake
and try to understand
this unfamiliar landscape
rebuild remake
try to recapture the magic we once felt
 , once again
rebuild remake
dont try make the old remain
rebuild remake
and remember that the only opportunities
are the ones that we create"

Everything is new
and i cant tell you how i got here
but i know that it will stay this way
embrace the world as you
learn to be sincere
forgeting the way things once were so fake

" rebuild, remake
we learn to fix our perceptions when it breaks
rebuild remake
we pick up where we leave off,
and we try to recreate
the world it seems was once a bigger place
rebuild remake
and try to understand
this unfamiliar landscape
rebuild remake
try to recapture the magic we once felt
 , once again
rebuild remake
dont try make the old remain
rebuild remake
and remember that the only opportunities
are the ones that we create"

Life is what we make,
rebulid, and recreate
nothings wrong with wanting to remember the past
but the past is something you will never tame
Rebuild yourself up
and remember that tomorrow is yours to claim
You know that things are gonna be okay
theres no way you can go back
but the world is like a peice of clay
and you can reinvent yourself
tomorrow is yours to claim

" rebuild, remake
we learn to fix our perceptions when it breaks
rebuild remake
we pick up where we leave off,
and we try to recreate
the world it seems was once a bigger place
rebuild remake
and try to understand
this unfamiliar landscape
rebuild remake
try to recapture the magic we once felt
 , once again
rebuild remake
dont try make the old remain
rebuild remake
and remember that the only opportunities
are the ones that we create"

the world is what you make
its alright to be afraid
there are things that will still amaze
rebuild yourself
reinvent yourself
and the world is whatever you make
rebuild yourself after you fall
and remember that its all
in your hands
when you believe
you will see
the world can be yours to claim
 just rebuild and remake

Tachycardia

"Up the dosage i think im gonna flatline
pulse is beating out of time
can someone help me
ive been cut deep and im bleeding out
my head is reeling haert rates plumeting down
kiss me , softly , and tell me, goodbye!
i think im gonna die"

i have this feeling like somethings going wrong
skin is peeling, ive been waiting everlong
im in pain, i need a feeling of elation
ive been calling for hours where oh where is my medication

"Up the dosage i think im gonna flatline
pulse is beating out of time
can someone help me
ive been cut deep and im bleeding out
head is reeling, heart rates plumeting down
kiss me, softly, and tell me, goodbye!
i think im gonna die"

i know i cant stop, but keep on beliveing
i may pull through, but i need you , because im barely breathing
suffocating,asfyxiating, i need a jump start
you cant bring me back, theres no electricity in my heart
asystoly is setting in, its too late for cpr

" up the dosage it hink im gonna flatline
my pulse is beating out of time
can someone help me
ive been cut deep and im bleeding out
head is reeling , as my heart rate plumets down
kiss me , softly , and tell me, goodbye!
i think im gonna die"

Oh the epinephrine could you give me a shot
cause i dont want to leave like this
keep the life support running and the morphine hot
oh my body is trembling and the air my lungs wont dismiss
i have so much left to still do, so would you
put an iv in and pull me out of the coma im in

" Up the dosage i think im gonna flatline
pulse is beating out of time
can someone help me
ive been cut deep and im bleeding out
head is reeling, and my heart rates falling down
kiss me , softly , and tell me , goodbye!
oh i think im gonna die"

oh oh up the dosage i think im gonna flatline
hold me through the convulsions for the last time
my head is rushing with glimpses of afterlife
could someone help me
wont someone plaese

" Up the dosage i think im gonna flatline
pulse is beating out of time
can someone help me
cause ive been cut deep and im bleeding out
my head is spinning, and my heart rates dropping down
kiss me, softly, and tell me, GOODBYE!
oh oh i think im gonna die"

" what do you do when your crutch breaks"

Run away child,
dont let yourself drown
because you know youve got to get away
or you'll be stuck in this town
and your broken
and your feelin let down
but youve got a new set of problems now

" when the only thing you know is falling
how can you see the light above
when you cant escape the spiral
how do you still believe in love
what do you beleive in
when everything before has let you down
how much farther can you descend
before you finally hit the ground
and when will it be okay
to get back up again"

throw it away
just say when
noone cares what you say
because they dont know your talking to them
your voice is strained
your spirit is low
your faith is pained
and broken now
youve got to escape to higher ground
if you stay where you are
you will never get your head above the surface
and the waters getting higher now

" when all you know is falling
how can you see the light above
when you never got a chance
how do you beleive in foolish things like love
what do you still beleive in
when everything before has let you down
how much farther can you descend
before you finally hit the ground
watch and wait
until you reach the end
then it will be okay
to try to pick yourself up again"

all you know is broken
youve been lied to one too many times
youve lost everything worth hoping ( for)
and all your fed is another line
when will they take you serious
when will they se you shine
the waiting is just another endeavor
that youl be at for forever
you feel like a lost cause
and noone can tell you that it will get better
everyday is just another storm
your waiting for an absolution
that will never come

"when all you know is falling
how can you see the light above
when you never got a chance
how do you believe in foolish things like love
what do you still believe in
when everything before has let you down
how much farther can you descend
till you fiinally hit the ground
and meet your bitter end
when will it be safe to say
that everythings okay
who knows the answer to even one of the questions i ask
and who will be your friend
and help you pick yourself up again"

"Im Sorry"

 soon the pain will end
and the healing will beign
i cry to myself , im so sorry that i will never see you again

"what did i do
what was it i never said
that made you feel so alone
that made you feel you had to go
and leave me in silence
please just yell at me
so i know it can be mended
plaese say anything, so i know i didnt leave you broken
please just look at me
your eyes cant tell a lie
show me what it is your feeling
what your longing to find a voice to say"

dont just walk away
dont just leave it open
with so much left to say
dont leave your thoughts unspoken
i cannot bare to live
knowing that i hurt someone
and the scars i cant take away
im sorry that i hurt you
i would gladly take your place
and feel what it is ive done to you
if it would numb your pain
id do it any day

"what did i do
what was it i never said
that made you feel so alone
that made you feel you had to go
and leave me in silence
please just yell at me
so i know it can be mended
plaese say anything, so i know i didnt leave you broken
please just look at me
your eyes cant tell a lie
show me what it is your feeling
what your longing to find a voice to say"

can you find the strength
to put your things back
and promise that youll stay
and i swear ill never turn away from you again
can you promise me that you will show forgiveness
for the things ive done to you
things i wish that i could undo
if i could try again
i would shut my mouth
and swallow all my venomous slurrs
choke on my angry words
i would throw out
everything i was, and show you who i am
if i could hear you speak again

"what did i do
what was it i never said
that made you feel so alone
that made you feel you had to go
and leave me in silence
please just yell at me
so i know it can be mended
plaese say anything, so i know i didnt leave you broken
please just look at me
your eyes cant tell a lie
show me what it is your feeling
what your longing to find a voice to say"

can you just accept
my sorrow and despair
as retribution
for the things i did unfair
can you take my appology
for not biting off my tongue
i never knew
youd be cripple by my words
and i would take your hand
across my face
if i ever said those words again
because its not what you deserve
i would  trade away my soul
just to see you smile again
and we'd be happy
i know i can make this right
i will never let this go
even if everydays a fight
just look me in the eyes
know that youd kill me with goodbye

"what did i do
what was it i never said
that made you feel so alone
that made you feel you had to go
and leave me in silence
please just yell at me
so i know it can be mended
plaese say anything, so i know i didnt leave you broken
please just look at me
your eyes cant tell a lie
show me what it is your feeling
what your longing to find a voice to say"

dont leave me all alone
just tell me that im wrong
and i will know your right
just dont ever leave my sight again
i know things cant be the same
but know that i would give to you
everything i can just to hear you say my name
and to know that your okay
ill never talk again
youve left me speechless and afraid
i would give anything to bring you back
dont let me take this regret to my grave
because your the only one
who ever brought a smile upon my face
and i mean this with all that is within me
i cant tell you enough that i am sorry